I Fell off my Horse

“Writing about a writer’s block is better than not writing at all”
— Charles Bukowski, The Last Night of the Earth Poems

June 25, 2015 | | Blogs | Community | Leisure | Two Blue Boots

Hello Readers,

It’s been a while since I posted last. I won’t attempt to justify my absence with a long list of glorified excuses. Instead, I’ll give you the short list:

  1. I got very sick and had my gallbladder removed.
  2. I couldn’t think of anything to blog about.
  3. I fell off my horse

First of all, I never, ever get sick. Over the years, I’ve earned myself the nickname “Little Miss Health” because I’m always so hale and hearty. I never skip a beat. Onwards and upwards. This winter, however, illness arrived and robbed me of my reining title. Sickness also submerged me into a creative black hole. I was in a funk. I could not write.

Friends told me to write about my gallbladder experience. I reminded them that my blog posts are supposed to be funny. There is absolutely NOTHING funny about gallbladder attacks or surgery.

In fact, the only humorous thing about the entire experience was the email my husband, Darrel, sent out to family and friends: “Laurie has surbiced the surgery of her gal latter the dock yet says no compilations” [sic]. Of course we all know Darrel well enough that we were able to translate his message to be: “Laurie has survived the surgery of her gallbladder. The doctor says, “No complications.”

At any rate, I was resting at home for several weeks and I figured I’d have plenty of empty hours in which to write. I did have an abundance of time, but I was sadly unmotivated and apathetic. It seemed I was out of touch with the natural rhythm of my life. I felt disconnected, disengaged, and discouraged.

I had fallen off the proverbial horse and I had to get back in the saddle again. The problem was that when I went to the stall to find my horse, he was no longer there! I suspected he had escaped through the barn door and galloped far away.

What a peculiar feeling! I would commence a blog but feel like I was going nowhere. I was riding a carousel horse, up and down and round and round. I’d abandon blog posts and begin new ones. An idea would seem brilliant one minute and dismal and dreary the next. I’d take a literary leap, then suddenly crash land – and I’d hit the delete button in frustration. I felt like I was riding an old mare one minute and a bucking bronco the next.

I began to fret and fuss. Had my love for writing vanished? Had the doctor removed my imagination along with my gallbladder?

Thankfully, as time went by, I gradually started to have faint flickers of creative thoughts. Tiny ideas started to sprout into bigger ideas. Big ideas started to blossom and then multiply.

Eventually I found myself back in the saddle. As it turned out, my horse hadn’t run away at all. He was waiting patiently for me all along. We may need to trot for a while before we reach a full gallop – but I have a feeling we’ll be jumping fences in no time at all.

Yee-haw!

About the Author More by Laurie May

Laurie teaches Grade 4 at Island Lake Public School in Orangeville and writes in her spare time. She lives in Mono and looks for the humour in everyday country life. Check out her blog “Two Blue Boots”.

Comments

16 Comments

  1. Glad to see you back at it Laurie.
    We love your horse!!
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    darrel may from orangevile on Jun 25, 2015 at 10:15 pm | Reply

    • Thanks Darrel. Oh – and thanks for being a good sport and allowing me to talk about your spelling skills.

      Laurie May from MONO on Jun 26, 2015 at 7:47 am | Reply

  2. Looking forward to where you ride next

    Ryan on Jun 26, 2015 at 3:25 am | Reply

    • Hey—that is a perfect line! Why didn’t I think of using it in the blog post? Thanks Ryan.

      Laurie May on Jun 26, 2015 at 7:49 am | Reply

  3. Welcome back Laurie. I love Darrel’s spelling.

    Joy Gaskin from Orangeville on Jun 26, 2015 at 7:10 am | Reply

    • Hi Joy – Yes, Darrel’s spelling skills can be a challenge. We help each other out, though. I have a terrible sense of direction and he is so patient with me. I help him to spell words and he helps me to get places.

      Laurie May on Jun 26, 2015 at 7:51 am | Reply

  4. Where do you think up the comparisons that you make?? I loved this blog and your using the horse made the story so much more interesting. Keep writing by staying on the horse.

    Norma Gee from Collingwood on Jun 26, 2015 at 8:20 am | Reply

    • Well….I guess I was just going with how I was feeling. It’s not nice to be laying on the ground with no horse in sight!
      Thanks for always reading my posts and taking the time to comment.

      Laurie May from Mono on Jun 26, 2015 at 11:33 am | Reply

  5. Laurie, does “falling off a horse and its consequences” ? run in the family? As you know, my granddaughter (your niece) Liz fell off a horse around the same time with similar results……also, .miraculously “kicking” her sense of feeling disconnected, disengaged and discouraged. Yes-Haw ? Dad

    Larry Gee on Jun 26, 2015 at 8:41 am | Reply

    • That’s right, Dad. Although Liz broke her pelvis and that was very painful. I’m glad that she is “back in the saddle” as well.

      Laurie May on Jun 26, 2015 at 11:37 am | Reply

  6. I’ve been waiting patiently for your next blog. I knew you’d had a rough “ride” all winter. Summer is going to renew your sense of creativity.

    Kassie from Guelph on Jun 26, 2015 at 8:15 pm | Reply

  7. Thank you Kassie. I’m looking forward to the summer holidays and I’m “chomping at the bit” to write again. Thanks for always taking the time to read my posts and to make comments. It means a lot to me.

    Laurie May on Jun 26, 2015 at 9:05 pm | Reply

  8. I don’t know laurie, I thought you looked pretty good on that horse. Next time schedule your surgery in the summer when you can really get out and ride that horse and after enjoy sitting in the sun with a gin and tonic!

    Connie Atkinson from Collingwood on Jun 27, 2015 at 2:39 pm | Reply

    • Great advice, Connie. I especially like the idea of “sitting in the sun with a gin and tonic”. I’ll give it a try.

      Laurie May on Jun 27, 2015 at 3:46 pm | Reply

  9. Well I’m glad is was an issue with your gallbladder, Laurie, and not your humerus! Luckily for us that is still obviously in tact. So glad you are back In The Hills – I missed you!

    Ann skwarek from Collingwood on Jun 29, 2015 at 3:51 pm | Reply

    • Thanks for your comment, Ann. You’re pretty funny yourself!!!!!

      Laurie May on Jun 29, 2015 at 4:10 pm | Reply

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